Thursday, February 22, 2007

Repentance and Restoration


My most gracious King and Father,

I come before you this morning, in need of one thing. Indeed, I yearn for even a little time with you. Oh my Father, do not remain far from me. I look for your hand day and night. In the morning I gaze into your word. In the day, I lift up my voice from bended knee to call out your name. In the evening I lay my heart before you.

How then is it that you feel so far away; that my ears no longer hear you calling out to me? How far have I strayed from your fold in the pursuit of my own happiness and worldly success? How hard has my heart become that I am not moved to compassion for those who are lost? Show me, my God, where I have turned away and where I have sinned against you. Sin can not dwell in your presence for you are perfect. Do not keep me blind forever to the greatness of my trespass but bring it into the light. Oh Lord, let not my many transgressions, great and small come between us. Wash me in the cleansing blood of Jesus I pray. By the power of your might, remove them far from me.

I am a chief of sinners and have no right to ask such things of my King, for I am worthy only of death. It is only by your grace and mercy that I dare to ask so boldly. Lord God, my soul is troubled in me and my spirit wastes away. You alone can change my heart. Only you can bring perfect healing and restoration. Do not with hold them from me but lift up my head from the dust that those who trust in you may rejoice with me in your great love and compassion.

Though I am as one wading through murky waters on a dark night, I will put my trust in you. I dare not trust myself for I am but flesh and blood; weak and prone to wander. You are the immovable and unchanging rock, the foundation. In your Word you have laid out what is required of a man. To love mercy. To do justice. To walk humbly with my God. So Lord, come to me again. Replace my heart of stone with a heart of flesh. My Father, instruct me in obedience, for I desire to please you. Strengthen me to run in the path of your commands for their will I find my delight. In pleasing you will I find abundant life.

Draw near to me, for destruction is at my doorstep. My path is filled with snares. Teach me to obey your commands that I might not fall. Teach me to love your statutes that my life may be preserved. Better is an hour with you than a meal of choice delicacies. More would be my delight in an hour of sweet communion with you than all the praise of men. For this is true joy – to know and walk with you. So my God, open my eyes to see, open my ears to hear, open my mind to understand, open my heart to act. I cry out to you, God, draw near to me that I may be drawn to you once more for the glory of your name. Do not remain angry with me Father, but remove my iniquity and call out my name that I might run to you. Let my heart rejoice that you will not abandon your beloved but you will satisfy me with your presence. To my Father, the creator and lover of my soul, be all glory, honor, power and authority through Jesus Christ my Lord .

Amen.

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